I used to say this about PMS: things that I griped about when I had PMS bothered me all the time, it is just that when I had PMS, I was more likely to tell you about it.
I’ve found the same to be true of my post-cancer lack of patience, really. As in, I have none at all. So, it may appear more things irk me these days that did not irk me before I got sick. Nope! All this stuff always pissed me off…I’m just faster to start complaining about it, and I do it louder than ever, in a completely obnoxious manner (I used to be more polite).
And I am soooo OK with that!
I’m making this fact part of my new normal (man, I’m starting to hate that little Cancerville phrase too–but that’s a whole other post).
anotheronewiththecancer 
Amen.
LikeLike
new normal – BAH! after both my husband and i had cancer at the same time, him with multiple myeloma in 2009, me with st IV metastatic bc in 2011 (yeah, okay – neither he nor me are “cured), we absolutely could not stomach that term. it’s clinical, cold, and it’s inherently continued reference to the loss of life as we knew it seemed an exercsie in futility. we get it …it’s NEVER coming back. but another term, life re-invented, just popped into my head one day, and that’s what we’ve been living. life re-invented invites us to invest in the possibilities of new adventures, the value and truth of life lived well in the present (HA! also one kick ass challenge for sure!) while also making plans for the future. while statistics, percentages, graphs and other such folderol say the “future” may hold inevitable recurrence for both of us, we’ve made a conscious decision to let the prognosticators own all that. we own LIVING. it’s been one hell of a ride these last nearly 4 years, but we are determined to savor whatever opportinity we have to be happy and celebrate all the good stuff. yes, we still go through a lot – the ravages of hugh’s 2 stem cell transplants, and the 9 months of my intense treatment (ongoing with adjuvant tx) – but hugh is in CR (complete response) and i am NED. we decided when we both made it through to where we are now – RUN WITH THE WIND, DAMMIT!!!
LikeLike
Hmm, I never thought of the phrase new normal as cold and clinical…I kind of stuck it in with the fuzzy psychobabble stuff like hope and journey, mainly because I first heard the term from the support/wellness sector of where I was treated. Now I’m really mulling over a post about the phrase. May I quote you, your comments about phrase, or at least reference it?
LOL, the funny part is that I was thinking, and trying to communicate in this post, that as much as everyone insists cancer is this life changing thing, the more I examine myself, the more I seem exactly like I was a decade ago…just more so. I used to be “mouthy” for just that week once a month, now I’m “mouthy” all of the time.
And I like it, ha ha.
LikeLike
dear cc,
thank you for your response to my comment. you may quote and/or reference any/all of it.
i LOVE your mouthiness! keep writing, as you do so well – reading your posts has been so enlightening and so helpful. i am so glad i found you.
LikeLike